June Random Thoughts

Feels like it's been ages since I wake up at 5am.
Pushing myself  for a shower.
put on uniform while my eyes can't even see the difference in colors yet
dragging my feet to get out of the house before 6.
Then way after all the business is done, with less than 30% of energy left,
i need to open the bag once more, making decisions on what to do next.
exams / homework / chill.

these are not what i miss from school
these are not what i intend to reminisce
but apart from all of that, there were things that I love about it.
things that will not ever happen again. perhaps.
the bell ring, the laughter, the nonsense talk with the teacher
the choice for lunch, the hang out, the group skip class.

Do i really want to do it all over again tho?
hmm..if i need to put it in axis (x=school, y=fun), it might not even have a slight bend towards the fun part
although i had such a lovely time during high school,
it doesn't mean i didn't get into trouble. friends or school.
maybe the reason of missing school is not even that significant.
its not about figuring out how to make the perfect knot on your tie.
or especially the sweat I dropped for trying to figure out what I've learned the night b4 the exam.
I think all of these comes to the the one reason.
company.

life in general needs others to survive.
once u are made too comfortable of the existance of friends at school,
we're just kind of thrown to the real world.
with only the slightest chance of group activities.
especially while at work.
from 40 people with one leader in a room, to 5 or 6 workers with your leader in another room.
no matter how close you are sitting with each other. there's always this "gap"
appropriate and not appropriate topic. time constrain to even have a descent conversation.

what i am trying to say is, some people has the hardest time once they get out of uni and spend time in workplace.
blues period.
I, for one, think that i almost passed that phase.
So, new-working-fella, this is certainly not the end.
ones just need to adapt to the new place.
I get it, what took u more than a decade to live in, certainly won't be easily replaced by one or two year in this new one.
it will take time. to let go. to accept. to get used to.
but trust me, it will all get better
as it will always be, everything will be all right at the end.

I wish someone had said these to me when I started working.
oh well.



Xx,


Lo